i wish that you knew

I wish you didn't think
i wish that you knew.

for all of the GA fans out there i hope u enjoyed that little quote. it got me thinking though. is it a sin to hesitate? or in other words get 'cold feet', even momentarily? why do we do that?

lets take something less serious and boring than marriage. ice cream. i want vanilla. i know i want vanilla, i dont just 'think' i want vanilla. ive been having vanilla my whole life..and guess what? i never regret having vanilla. so why do i hesitate? i know im going to end up buying vanilla. why do i stop for one tiny fragment of a second to have a mini panic attack?

because i have a choice.

its choices that make our lives what they are. whats scary is thinking about what we didnt choose or what we're losing out on. by choosing vanilla, ive missed out on that delicious looking gloppy green tea ice cream that seems to bring my mum so much happiness. and yes. its scary to think that you miss out on anything at all that would have put your life in a better position.

well you know what? i have my little panic attack. but i still have to choose. and when i do...i don't look back. because you make a choice and you dont look back. you live with it.

i didnt get the delicious flavour fusion of green tea ice cream. so what? life goes on. maybe next time i will.

or maybe il have chocolate chip and cookie dough and leave the green tea to mum.