HAHA

reading some of my old posts (even my june one)..im SUCH A DRAMA QUEEN. thank you to people who put up with me!!
how embarassing!

-Esh-

still posting :)

im pretty sure no one reads this anymore. and if u do...ure either really creepy or lead a sad and boring life. In both cases im still happy that someone reads it :) (provided you're not a serial killer or a stalker)

stalkers aside..this is my first post in semester two of my first fabulous year at uni! im actually managing to keep exercising. never thought it would last but my run every night through uni is doing me so much good. yuck..i just ate a pot of weightwatched cookies and cream ice cream. dude..it tastes like shit. mental note: if im going to eat ice cream i might as well eat the good stuff.
lets see..semester two hasn't exactly been life changing so far. apart from the exercise thing. ive decided i like change! except im not liking the weather changes right now. one minute the house is going to be blown away and the next day the beach is looking tempting. make up your mind please..everyone is getting sick!

im overloading this sem..and honestly its better than i thought it would be. ok so i dont have much of a life but il live...never really had much of one to start off with! i miss first sem a bit. all the people on my floor who moved out. my neighbour is gone..god i miss her. lots of relationships changed too. you dont even realise where the time goes and then suddenly it hits you that things aren't the same. and now..i can't decide whether i want them to be the same or not.

oh and whoever said that the chef has changed at currie (in an excited tone)...you can't tell. the food is just as tasty(haha) as it ever was.

-Esh-

p.s i recommend disturbia. i cant take movies like that but i really enjoyed it! (the bits that i saw anyway)

i wish that you knew

I wish you didn't think
i wish that you knew.

for all of the GA fans out there i hope u enjoyed that little quote. it got me thinking though. is it a sin to hesitate? or in other words get 'cold feet', even momentarily? why do we do that?

lets take something less serious and boring than marriage. ice cream. i want vanilla. i know i want vanilla, i dont just 'think' i want vanilla. ive been having vanilla my whole life..and guess what? i never regret having vanilla. so why do i hesitate? i know im going to end up buying vanilla. why do i stop for one tiny fragment of a second to have a mini panic attack?

because i have a choice.

its choices that make our lives what they are. whats scary is thinking about what we didnt choose or what we're losing out on. by choosing vanilla, ive missed out on that delicious looking gloppy green tea ice cream that seems to bring my mum so much happiness. and yes. its scary to think that you miss out on anything at all that would have put your life in a better position.

well you know what? i have my little panic attack. but i still have to choose. and when i do...i don't look back. because you make a choice and you dont look back. you live with it.

i didnt get the delicious flavour fusion of green tea ice cream. so what? life goes on. maybe next time i will.

or maybe il have chocolate chip and cookie dough and leave the green tea to mum.